Help pannunga broskies

I’ve been at home for the past few months, I feel like I completely lost my focus and passion for studying. I really want to study and improve myself so I can get a job, but when I sit down to study something, I can’t concentrate. I feel very bad. I can't express what I feel.

I also feel alone recently that I want to cry. I talk to my parents, and they’re friendly and supportive, but there’s only certain things to share with them. Some things are to be shared with friends only.

Another thing that affects me is that I don’t know how to ride a bike. It sounds easy, but it became a barrier when it came to going out with friends. I had to rely on others for rides, which made me feel dependent. I’m learning now, but after just being at home, I think I'm losing my friends too. Like I don't know who should I see as my close friend.

One more thing is that I got rejected. The relationship was mutual like 2 years back. Then she wanted to break up. I agreed and we became friends and all, because she wanted to be friends with me. She sees me as a very good friend but I consider her more than just my friend. I proposed to her one last time even though I know I'll get rejected but this time it felt so bad. She said don't depend on me. Life needs to go on. I blame myself because I was too afraid to talk to her properly in person. I mostly texted or called her. I keep thinking that if I had been more confident and talked to her more in person, maybe things would have been different.

And my sleep cycle, it's more than questionable.

Right now I'm stuck with everything and seriously confused which part of me to fix first. Some advice is definitely needed. Thank you in advance!