I had my first kiss last night and I don’t know why the hell I acted like that

I (18F almost 19) who has never dated, kissed, or done anything of the sort had a third date with this guy (21M) at his apartment. It was really good—we watched a movie, cuddled, ate dinner, I met his friends/roommates, and overall I felt very comfortable with him. At the end of the night, he walked me out to my car and wanted to kiss me.

We have kind of an awkward, silly vibe so he communicated this through like a smirk and a “So…” or something similar. Immediately I fuck up the moment. And for the next like minute or so, this is what I‘m rambling off through a smile and some laughs.

”Wait…” and I look to the side. ”Wait I’m scared.” He’s like “We don’t have to if you don’t want to.” I look up to the sky. ”No I want to, I’m just scared.” I look to the side, “I’ve never kissed anyone before.” I look back to the sky, scrunch up my face and say “Hold on……Hold on….” and then I breathe out in preparation and say “Okay.”

I walk towards him and put my hands on his waist by accident??? Is this even normal? Then it happens and I don’t even know if I did anything with my lips or what even happened because he went so fast. Then I put my hand on his chest, look at the ground, breathe out and go, “It was good!” and he goes “Yeah, it was good!” Idk how to explain the jokey tone that was in but yeah.

Anyways, I was very embarrassed at first but also this is just who I am so whatever. We also talked about it and I told him I blacked out and he said not to worry because there will be many more to come.