Waiting til labor or inducing?

I really prioritize having my provider being at my birth because of complications I’ve had in the past. I haven’t had good experiences with the other providers in the clinic. That being said, if I wait til I go into labor naturally, I may or may not have her as my provider. If I induce, I know I will have her. This is my 2nd pregnancy. I had an induction for my first due to complications. Ended up going into labor only with prostaglandins no pitocin needed. I really want to experience natural labor fully and go to the hospital when ready instead of going a night before. I just feel nervous if I’m with anyone else other than her. Especially if I get the male providers. I’ve had horrible experiences with them. The practice is run by her and her mother, and they’re the only ones I’d be comfortable with. I feel like I’m overly anxious about this. Am I wrong for thinking this way?