Horny venting

idk what to do, I feel a little lonely like not really emotionally but physically. I just got out of a year long relationship three weeks ago but I just feel so horny all the dam time. like all I could think about the past three days is how much I want to cuddle with someone and have my holes absolutely recked, like I what to suck someone's dick till they physically can no longer cum. I want to have someone whip me and smack my ass till I am red. I want some to edge me till I am shaking, crying and can't think straight. I want to make a man whimper and tease and edge him till he can't tell the difference between pain and pleasure. I want a guy to finger fuck the shit out of me, but I also want to sound and peg a guy. but I dream of having both holes fisted at the same time. i want to be be disrespected and violated. but i also want to give a guy a golden showerI want to be dominanted and dominant, I want the best of both worlds. But i don't want to have a one nightstand because i am terrified of getting STDs/STIs abd i get attached quickly, plus i still live with my mom because the economy hates everyone and none of the the guys in my town knows how to socialize because their "nonchalant" (aka they have no personality / scared to talk to people) i can't wait to go to a four year.