Why do I still want someone who treated me poorly?

Following a wonderful Valentine’s weekend where I traveled 6 hours to and from by bus, and invested hundreds of dollars in a suit and tickets… my now-ex told me 15 minutes before I had to leave that she was questioning the relationship, and didn’t know if it was for her.

She said this to me following a visit full of smiles, intimacy, and pure love. No sign told me otherwise. She made me sit in these words for two days, while telling me she loved me and wasn’t going anywhere.

She then told me she needed a break, but assured me she didn’t want this time to last forever, and that she wouldn’t be looking for other boys. She wanted 30-days, no contact. She said she would never pull the trigger on a breakup because she didn’t want to risk losing me forever.

I couldn’t agree to it, I asked to see her in person face-to-face in 3 weeks and she belittled me for it. She told me I’ve only ever supported her because she told me to, not because I want to.

She yelled at me that it was over. If it wasn’t her way, it was no way.

I sit here today, almost a week broken up, and for some reason, I feel the want to unblock her and call her. Why?