at least i get to be pretty in my dreams

ive been escaping into my head for my entire life. its the only place i can really live. where there is no more pain. where everything is alright. where my babies are always waiting for me.

who could blame me for wanting to stay there forever, within an endless dream? asking me to keep living is just asking me to keep needlessly suffering. and im tired of suffering. i just want it to end