Humbly requesting internet hugs and words of comfort and maybe advice 💔

In the middle of a month-long-thus-far depressive/dissociative episode. Confused and crying almost every day. Missing my college classes and am really behind. Feeling extremely poorly about myself, my character, my appearance, and my progress in life (I'm 27 still in undergrad, autistic with developmental delays, no job history). Somewhat considering not sticking around.

My parents are very unkind people so I am here. I have a partner but don't want to burden them more than I already have.

Yes, I have reached out to a few therapy clinics with my case manager, but no responses yet. Hoping for advice, but moreso sympathy and hugs. :(