loneliness

i'm honestly not sure what flair to put this under, but i want to vent / ask for advice. i feel as if i'm such a loser going into my 26th year. i'm a woman, a virgin, never been kissed and it doesn't help that at this age my mother had me and was married already lol. the most of my relationships, yup you guessed it, online! i feel like i ruined my own life. i've tried so many detoxes from social media, from online gaming and whatnot but it still pulls me in. i've tried so many jobs in retail to at least put myself out there and try and make friends my own age because parents always love the whole "you're going to find friends at work / school" line. i feel stuck, i don't know how to get unstuck. i can't stop crying because i just want to feel some sort of sense of community, and i feel that with the people i meet online, but making friends / finding a relationship in real life feels like a slippery slope. tldr; i feel like i'm running out of time and i have no real sense of where i belong in the world.