Lost it at 41

I dunno if I'd consider this a success story, but I felt I should report it. I went from kissless virgin to losing it totally at random.

It was with my mother's friend called Belle. I've known her pretty much my whole life, but she's always been with someone until recently. She's in her late 50s and a little overweight.

I went to Belles' to help setup a door cam. She'd been drinking and offered me one. I had one beer just to be friendly. There was no build up, no flirting, no music. Belle just started touching me and trying to undress me right in her dining room. She led me to a rug in her conservatory. We barely kissed, barely even fully got undressed. I had difficulty getting hard at first because it was so sudden and I felt like we were being watched from the yard.

She sucked my dick to help, but it was so awkard and felt like... nothing, just a wet sensation, but I eventually managed to get hard. I got above her and needed her help guiding it in, I even told her she needs to guide me. I think she thought I was joking.

The sex lasted longer than I thought, I always heard it was over quick on the first time, but this dragged on and honestly didnt feel that good. She did moan quite a bit, but I dunno if she was faking it. I ended up using my imagination and pretending she was someone else just so I could cum. I felt like I could've kept going, but I just wanted it to end. It was that disappointing.

It happened 2 days ago, she's been messaging me a lot and wants me to see her later today, but I really don't want to.

Worst thing is, I don't feel any different, if anything I just feel weird and even more confused.

Sorry if I don't reply. I might end up deleting my account.