i have meltdowns that seem like autistic meltdowns but not diagnosed or anything

okay long story short (important to mention i am chronically high and its harder to control myself if im not ) a lot of the time I get really frustrated or upset and as I experience more and more added stimulation (such as people around me, noise, making a mistake if completing a task, getting a text, GOD IF SOMEONE EVEN BREATHES THE WRONG WAY) i lose control and start hitting myself, pulling hair, scratching, yanking my clothes, throwing things, screaming, hyperventilating and shaking. had bf witness my thoughts during and after a meltdown tonight and it was humiliating to say the least. (begged me to calm down bc I was stressing him out) each one I have I feel less and less in control of them and I feel like a immature hotheaded idiot