easy and painless ?

my first attempt at 13 was hanging ; i still have permanent scars from the broc string and nerve damage . the second a few months later was smoke inhalation in the bathroom but it hurt my lungs really bad . then the pills , but those just knocked me out for a few days , i was clinically dead for a bit , then im back . those are just the major ones . i wont bore u w the details . i just need an out im only 18 and i suffer every single day , i almost started slicing n dicing again after idk how many years on my bday last week bc i was so ... idk . but its constant pain every single day and i hate it pls and ion wanna hear stuff like shooting myself or voluntary stop eating or drinking ( i alr have an ed as it is ) bc im also a raging alcoholic and my only motivation to drink is that ima get sloppy drunk ! case in point , tell me how to kill myself guys w the least amount of blood and mess i dont want whoever to find me to have to clean up much