since the comments there is half of man saying my dad isn't wrong im posting this here. 

why are people more then willing to blame the minor only when the minor is clearly in a toxic household. I was bullied and SA for fucked sakes I had thoughts of getting  rped at 11 cause I believe I deserve it. literally fuck up my view point on romance to the point I did something that could fuck my life up forever.

I just wish my parents can admit that they fucked up befire I decided to send nudes to two strangers, thankfully those two didnt threatened me and we both went our separate ways deleting the videos and pictures but I feel guilty. all I wanted was someone to love me. I was tired of being looked at weird for still being single in high-school.

I was called ugly throughout years of elementary and middle school I was legit compared to this horror game character named momo for fuck sakes, in middle school someone purposely mistake me as a boy because I have a flat chest and ass. all school did was reward and ignore the horrible things people have done to me and the moment where I finally rebelled and try to fit in I get people in the dms saying its my fault. so.eone fuckung called me worthless for fuck sakes. 

this gives me all the reasons to just do it. do it at a public bridge since I clearly have no one who loves me. my parents cant even admit they fucked up. I admit I use the internet as escapism there was signs I wasnt okay at all.

I fucked up my life.