In Pursuit of Misery - thoughts i want to share and request suggestions. Update

pure masochist here

i want lose out all my money without people getting to do know that i am doing it willining. I want to take jobs which are hard for me to do and be sleep deprived with stand of sleeping just 4 hours from 12 PM to 4 PM. I do not want any one to show me any sympathy or empathy. i look for men and women who take advantage of me. As for of my dressing i always buy cheep material and never shop when there is discount i always pay full money and i choose 2 sizes small. I aways wear bra with tacks ( made it custom self stitched) and tack thong panties. I go to cheep restaurants and pay a large tip. I just want to plan to take a job working for 40 to 50 hours a week and want to do it for a very low non permenant wage . Please advise on how do i go further into the rabit hole. Looking for sadist who are willing to guide me . this is not for any sexual gratification or any sexual acts , its for my betterment on how i can lead a full masochist life.

Update :

I got a waitress job and got selected. 2 weeks of no pay and based on their evaliation will be hired. My terms and conditions are i will be paid $ 1.5 per hour and they can remove me anytime but i have togive them 1 month notice if i am leaving else they will hold my pay. I will not get any benefits and tips earned will be held off and payed witha delay of one month.