It's not fair but I choose to let it all go regardless of whether it affects me positively or negatively

I'm a gay man of 20 years, and I often look for guys to hook up with in the hopes to connect with one of them eventually because it's not just about the sex honestly

I don't have any negative opinions over anyone no matter what they look like or what they could have done unless it's something really heinous, I just want the companionship or friendship that would atleast not make me feel any more lonely than I already do.

But I find it unfair that many of them, while I respect their choices and decisions, don't let me atleast have a chance to talk or even ask to atleast be friends because I don't ask or demand for a lot of things, all I want is a friend or atleast someone to talk to on here

But at the end of the day I'm just here looking for someone or something that's far out of my reach, and that's okay because I'm essentially looking for something that I can't have

and to anyone who sees this and has even read this far, I hope you're doing better in your life than I am, I hope you're feeling better than how I'm feeling, because you deserve much better than I do. I hope you have a wonderful day ahead of you😊