First real relationship

Me 17M and my GF 17F have been together since October 2025 and idk a lot about fun and functional relationships as I only had sex 13 times and never a gf for more than 2 months, which I’m embarrassed about. She hasn’t hit me, is valedictorian, sexy, is

js in so many ways amazing. I’m a drop out and ex drug addict. We’re co workers and haven’t had sex, I think she wants to wait, but idk what for (considering she may still be a virgin.)I also have a huge amount of paranoia and jealousy, and ik 90% is unjustified. I want to have sex and want to make it special. For both of us and I need real advice that someone can go into depth on.