How to get used to anal enough to like it?

I want to like it tbh. I've done anal a handful of times. I was able to get past the painful entering part of it,that wasn't really hard BUT I couldn't get past the in and out sensation, I'd get the urge like I was gonna poop! 😭😭 And that urge felt super uncomfortable and then of course terrifying because I didn't want something like that to actually happen. I've enjoyed anal beads somewhat,but I'd also feel that same urge sometimes when it was getting pulled out. I do like butt plugs but those don't really involve that in and out movement.

Soooo any tips? For those who have experienced the same thing, did you get past it and how did you??