I don’t know how to feel anymore about day trading.

I don’t know how to feel anymore about day trading.

I got introduced to the markets right after COVID and have been trying to become consistently profitable ever since. I actually quit for two years, but decided to give it one last shot. Things started going well — I even hit my first big milestone: $15,000 in profits in a single month with the prop firm My Forex Funds (MFF).

Guess what? They never paid me. 😅

That destroyed me. My ego exploded and I went full revenge-trading mode trying to “get my money back” from the market. The result? Even bigger losses and completely broken psychology. For months I couldn’t withdraw a single dollar from any prop firm.

Then, slowly, I started making money again and stacking the accounts:

• ~$4k in April

• ~$3k in May

• ~$10k in June

In July I blew all three 100k funded accounts. When I looked back, I realized I blew them because I started feeling invincible and simply could not handle losses anymore.

After that, I repeated the exact same cycle: got funded with four 100k accounts, made $30k in the next three months… and blew everything again.

Since then I’ve paid for at least 7–8 new challenges and failed every single one. I’ve burned thousands of dollars just trying to get back to the level I was at before.

There were moments I was literally screaming and raging at my screen because I’d close a trade at +2R… only to watch it run to +3.5R in the next 5–10 minutes.

Now I keep asking myself: Am I really built for the kind of person trading demands?

I feel completely lost. I have almost no money left, but at least I was smart enough to take a big chunk of my profits and pay off 95 % of my debts.

I’m seriously thinking about going back to school or learning a real skill so I can at least pay the bills, and turn trading into a side hustle instead of my main thing.