I don't wanna die...

my friends are calling but I'm not picking up, and Im sorry but just not sorry enough. I've been in bed for days I feel myself rotting away. my familys done trying to see why, they all think I just wanna die, but I don't. I never have and that's almost the worst part in of it'self. I wanna live I just don't feel very motivated. I'm tired all the time. cant seem to love the things I used to find entertaining. every day hurts but "I feel amazing" what a lie. nobody thinks I'm sereous cause how how can I be depressed and yet not want to die.