Stood up for myself

Dear friend,

I'm so glad I have you in my life. You call yourself mean but I'm glad someone is angry about my situation where I no longer have the energy to care.

I've been sleeping terribly. Had a talk with my therapist's office about sliding scale payments since I can't outright afford it anymore bc of my husband.

He got drunk tonight and was playing loud music while cooking dinner. It woke me up when I was trying to sleep. When he came to give me a kiss I pulled away and asked him why he was playing loud music when he knows I'm tired and trying to sleep. He said nothing and turned the music off and finished cooking, and apologized when he was done.

But I'm already awake so it's just going to be another night of anxiety.

Thank you for getting mad. I tried to get mad at him for waking me up but I don't know how to get angry when I don't care anymore.