I have no time or energy to do things I want to do, and it's so overwhelming

I got my first job a couple months ago and I honestly wish I didn't. I know this is just a normal part of life and that I'm preaching to the choir, but God I wish it would just stop. When I have time I have no energy so I end up just sleeping, when I have energy I usually have no time, and moments where I have both are soiled by my dad screaming at me and breathing down my neck and calling me lazy for not doing house chores during the summer. All I want to do is play music and sleep, and I don't have time to do both. I haven't gotten more than 6 hours of sleep on a school day in almost 2 years, and I'm so tired all the time.

I wake up at 5 am to look perfect for school, even though I look like shit by 3rd period. Half my day is dedicated to pretending to listen to some fuckass teacher talk about the cell membrane or Pythagorean's theorem, then I go to my job where I pretend like I didn't dig a razorblade through my thigh the previous night. When I get home from work I have maybe 2 hours before the dread of doing it all over again the next day starts. I don't live for myself, I live for whatever I'm told to do or should be doing.

The worst part is that I know it only gets worse from here. I don't know how people do this shit for 90 years. I shouldn't be complaining, I have it good.