For some reason I can't put my finger on my type. When I first took 16p (i know the cringe) i tested as an intp, but after looking back on my life as a whole, I know I probably am not. I always feel like something needs to be proven or provable by me to believe in it fully, but when it is, I believe in it completely. Compared to other people in my family, I feel a need to create change in the world. They also put a great emphasis on following the rules while I feel that they can sometimes be discarded if they are stupid/unimportant. I feel like my empathy is more emotional than cognitive, and my first instinct is to comfort the suffering or sorrowful or to be sorrowful myself. I like doing outdoors stuff and can be quite impulsive at times, but a lot of the time, my inner voice is having a loud discussion on whether I truly need something or if it will have unintended effects. I can get terrible tunnel vision when I get fixated on something and create a whole plan to do something, but usually not do that thing while holding back my impulses. As a kid I used to be a musical performer and jazz improvisor. People that meet me think I would make a great politician because I am able to articulate what I want to say in a convincing manner. I do have to say though, I would rather be by myself or with a few close friends rather than at a party, and in fact I really hate going to parties. I will sometimes just break down and almost go into a panic attack at times when I think about things like the inevitability of death or other things, and I am beset with incredible feelings of sadness, knowing that I will have to see other's around me perish one day. I just want to figure out my type to know myself even better.

I just cant figure out my type still for some reason.