bf M26 doesn't listen to me F25

hi, I posted on here before and deleted the mess in hopes of a better future, but my bf of 1 year and a bit doesn't seem like he listens to me on a daily basis... when we first started dating, he would listen to me and actually do the things i told him to do, now, he won't even brush his teeth when i ask him to.. he comes back from work (this happens even when he's not at work) and just fucks around on his phone all day long (or Xbox) until it repeats tomorrow... during this time i tell him things and he fakes listening (i don't talk non-stop, just things that happened throughout the day).. im very confused, frustrated and my patience is running low... i tell him to stop doing certain things and he just doesn't seem to even try or scoffs about it or even mimics me! im constantly in a state where i feel like im walking on eggshells trying to not make him hate me by talking to him... our lifestyles aren't compatible, he doesn't show much interest in me (doesn't kiss me goodnight, remembers maybe once or twice a day to say ily, doesn't touch me much). lol i can't take much more but im hoping for a bright future together... i have tried leaving him, he ended up devastated so that's also stopping me from finding someone else... are men usually this way, as in, they just ignore you when you talk at them when they do stuff? he literally cannot multitask, but also when he sees me or hears me speak, he doesn't ask what i said right afterwards... im so prone to feeling guilt about breaking his heart because he doesn't deserve it, he said he did everything for me and always tries his best, is he just tired, doesn't want to talk to me or he is just tolerating me? we don't go out as a couple anywhere (money problem too), but he doesn't even want to go to parks or walks with me, i have to beg him... i hate this! i feel like he's holding me back sometimes, other times i feel lucky to have him. the other day i was sick, and he kept playing in his Xbox instead of giving me his full attention even for a few minutes, it's ridiculous... i don't know whether to suck it up or leave on a random day! truly, i live in fear that i won't find anyone else or someone better, im afraid to break his heart over such small things, but some days i honestly hate his guts and i don't know why exactly! i tell myself im just frustrated and he's tired after work, im too much or i ask too much, sorry for the long paragraph but im in a crisis - i feel like time is running out for me, im in my mid 20's and im still not married or found someone i truly love!!! we're abroad and we're just starting our new lives in a country we don't even speak the language of, ive been though hell for him working shit jobs and moving places constantly, im starting to sense the future that i hoped for is non-existant... he is hard-working, resourceful and intelligent, but he's not the best at handling me and my emotions, i end up not feeling appreciated more than i am appreciated.. am i asking for too much? he says he loves me dearly but his actions say the opposite... he doesn't trust me either and takes my phone to see if ive cheated, which i will never do, but im so scared ill be alone for another God-knows how many years... ive only ever loved one person in my life so i know what i should be looking for, yet with this person, life feels stagnant and ugly