Doing better now, week 5 NC

My relationship wasn't mutual. We had a 3 year relationship that kept me anxious and guessing. I knew it had to end in order for me to heal, and I knew that ending it would be excruciating.. but not letting go meant chronic dull pain as long as I held on knowing there was nothing to hold onto. Anyway, I spilled my feelings knowing it would end as a result, and of course it did. I spent a couple of weeks crying and ruminating if I did the right thing. I asked the DR for medicine and was given something for depression. Week 4 and, while i still think of him, it's not in the same way. What saved me was listing to repeated podcasts of Kabbalah, meditating, crying whenever i felt like it, writing in my journal, praying, talking to chatGPT, accepting when I just felt like staying home, sleeping a lot, working out, etc. I know it's not over but I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Good luck to you all at the beginning of the journey. It will get better.