Scared

I’m just tired, day after day after day just ruining by body. Caffeine, jerking off, and overall just starving myself to cope with everything is scaring me. I wanna change but I’m stuck as just my 12 year old self and too scared to reach out or anything to fix myself. I just wanna be able to smile without wanting to cry every single moment. I’m sorry for this inconvenience if it brought you down.