am i throwing on Ana?

i main ana and i’m in silver but it’s mostly because i just never play comp or have ever bothered ranking up, i prefer QP (im pretty casual)

however recently i’ve been playing more comp. the environment on comp has been stressful. ive recently been getting blamed by my dps for losses despite having high win rates. i’m wondering if this is my fault, so ill explain the situation:

positives: I’m really really good at hitting sleeps and big antis. i cancel MINIMUM 4 ults per game. I’m usually on par with my DPS with kill count however never surpass them. i usually have the least amount of deaths and good positioning.

negatives: i can never get my healing up to be on par with characters like Mizuki and Kiri. one example of this is a recent game, where our kiri had 10k healing and 3 kills while i had 23 kills and 7k healing. i was told i was throwing. i do good at keeping the team alive but i can never get my heals up high like most characters can. i dont have this problem on other characters.

am i throwing? or is this just silver players being dramatic? i only ever get blamed in comp so idk