Ouch.

I hate how he gets to keep living and i'm stuck in a hole. I hate feeling like i'm the crazy one for always checking his socials, and watching his new supply get all the things I wanted. I hate how he picked everyone over me, bullied me for years, just for his new supply to be an exact copy of me. I hate how I put so much time , effort, energy, and love into things with him and the only way I can get peace from the situation is by never talking to him again. I hate how I now have to keep all my social media accounts private scared if he sees me doing good he will hoover or get mad and start a smear campaign. I hate how I even have to be careful about who follows me, what I caption my posts on social media, and having to worry about my locations or feelings being anywhere. I hate how I'm so scared if I reject his hovering he will start a smear campaign. I feel like i'm basically forced to be locked in a box, looking like i'm the crazy one, and I can't do anything. I'm not free of him even If I choose to be silent. I wish I never met him. This all sucks so badly. I miss the life I had.