28F How to move on from a potential possibility?

Idk what happened. But this guy was clear he doesn’t want relationship. Even I didn’t or don’t.

But I got too attached, too close and started to dream of meeting atleast etc. too much lore there. He felt like my safe space.

My conflicting thought was - how can he be talking to a person for 7 months and feel nothing. NOTHING. I understand about the commitment part but how NOTHING. I crossed that barrier. Why didn’t he.

And red flag - didn’t show his face yet 7 months.

Now the dynamic has changed or whatever but he is supposed to study and he is stressful about it. I am unable to be supportive because of my instability regarding him. But he has told his future plans - I am nowhere in it. Nowhere. I’m just hurt. Sure I can’t force anyone but how does one be like that. I have poured and poured. I have cried and shit. And him withholding affection which HE showed to me earlier is not sitting with me.

It’s like u started it bro and leaving me half way through.

I want to be a good friend but idk.

I’ve lost myself in this. Just there are days I get my energy back and then back to depression again.