25M Christian Addicted to P*rn. I'm desperate for breakthrough.

My name is David. I'm 25 and I've been a Christian my whole life — though I walked away from the faith at 17 and spent years doing things I'm genuinely ashamed of. Drinking, lying, stealing — including from my own parents. I got deep into p*rn during that time too.

At 25, I felt God calling me back. And I answered.

I quit drinking completely. I'm in the process of paying back everyone I stole from years ago. I stopped lying. I've done the hard work of genuinely turning my life around.

But p*rn has become a wall I'm struggling to get past.

I can barely make it a week. Every time I fall back into it, I repent, I promise God it won't happen again, I mean it with everything in me — and then a few days later I'm back. The accessibility makes it worse. I'm online most of the day and it's always just a few clicks away. Blockers don't help because I can disable them myself whenever the urge hits hard enough.

The thing that eats me up most is this: I keep committing the same sin over and over while fully knowing it's wrong. It makes me feel unforgivable. Like I'm not really serious about my faith. But I am. I genuinely am.

I've tried willpower. I've tried prayer alone. I've tried blockers. Nothing has created lasting change.

Right now I'm searching for something that actually works permanently — not just for a few days, not just until the next weak moment. Something that removes the desire completely rather than just forcing myself to resist it every single day.