How do I stop craving love and relationships?

so this might sound a bit cringey but Im 19 years old and I have never been in a relationship.

For a long time I wondered why but the last few years I found the answer.

Im very very disgusting looking.I am the kind of ugly that you feel genuinely bad for.

But besides finally realizing that Im unlovable.

I still want love and affection.How do I stop?