Ragey 4 months PP

Has anyone else experienced an incredibly elevated amount of noise in their brain? I cannot focus because I overthink absolutely everything. I had to start taking meds to calm me down and I feel like it gives me short term memory loss and makes me feel like an idiot. I bottle everything up and then get ragey at everybody but the babies. I feel bipolar or something (no offense to those who have it or anything, I don't know what my actual deal is). I'm like snow white with the babies and so hostile towards my spouse. We really do live in a crazy noisy world and I think it catches up with me. I need to be on a farm in the middle of nowhere. 🤷🥰🤬💪