Feeding Anxiety

Hello everyone, 23M here. I've been dating my boyfriend/feedee for a few months now, and we have an opportunity to do our first in person feeding this weekend. We have tried in the past but it didnt work out because of my anxiety and he just ate the food himself. I'm too the point where I am doubting if I am capable of being a feeder, and might be better as an encourager. Should I try to push past my anxiety to see if I like feeding him myself? I really don't want to end up disappointing him and being a bad partner but I'm not sure what to do and need advice.