A poem I wrote for my dad

Hey dad, today’s your day.

Today’s the day you left this world

Today’s the day I had to accept

That my 20s would be without you

That my kids would never know you

But only in spirit and memories I kept.

Looking back on basketball

And the times I thought I had it all

But never knowing

The one i pushed away

Would die someday

So I hope you hear my words

I hope you see me

I hope one day I be abled to say

I’m okay

Until then, I want you to know

I’m mad and I’m sorry

Not at you dying but

At the fact I pushed you away

even though you were trying

To fix our relationship

To have a connection and get a grip

But not to get all sad

Let me update you on this shit

Your daughter about to graduate college

I’m focus and never quit

I want to make you proud

And be able to say from heaven

“That’s my daughter” and shout insanely loud

Today I told it’s your 4th birthday

3 years in the sky

and it still feels like the worst day

But don’t think I wont celebrate

That your at peace

No more hurting

No more suffering

And far from struggling

Just my old man with a seat

Next to god, watching the sea

So I hope you hear me

I hope you see me

That your baby girl is becoming a woman

And I’m trying to flourish

I love you