Do I just accept my fate?

Me, HLM and my wife LLF have had many discussions on the topic of sex. She’s very understanding about my needs but she rarely initiates and if she does accept any advance it feels almost forced.

My wife has been diagnosed with depression in the past and I know that can affect libido so I do appreciate it when she tries but it still feels like she’s doing it cause he has to. I guess I have learned to accept the lesser amount of times but it’s hard to get over that I’ll never experience much else but rare vanilla very basic sex.

I feel trapped because I’ve tried to explain my interest in exploring kinks and other areas of the bedroom but she’s just not willing to try anything because of her low libido and her lack of interest in the broader sexual world. I thought moving

Out of NYC to the suburbs would help but it didn’t.

I guess I’m just not sure if I have to seek it out elsewhere or just accept my fate and move on (which not sure I can do).