I wish I treated you better T.

You were the perfect one for me. You understood my feelings and my emotions and you were my safe space but you were also very toxic to me. This crazy enmeshing relationship caused me many highs and many lows. I still think about us 2 years later and even though I recently broke no contact I still feel so far away…. I fear I will never meet anyone like you ever again. I need to get all my feelings out now, so I can start focusing on myself because it’s eating me alive. I miss you so much you have no idea and I don’t know exactly what it is I miss but one of your hugs would heal all of my pain right now. If I have to go on like this for the rest of my life searching for you in every person I meet I will be let down, because no one compares to you.

I love you trevor

love nikki