HELP ME !!!

EVERYTHING HAS FALLEN APART AROUND ME.
IT DID SO YEARS AGO, AND NOBODY SEEMED TO NOTICE.
IT WAS ALL KNOCKED DOWN BY MY PARENTS (go figure). THEY AREN'T WELL.
THEY REALLY AREN'T WELL.
MY POOR SIBLINGS.
( Two, 13 and 14 yrs old respectively )

MY ROOM IS FULL OF COBWEBS. I WRITE THIS AT 3:02AM. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY, I CANNOT EVEN ATTEMPT TO GO TO SLEEP. SOMETHING IS WRONG. I FEEL LIKE A SNAKE TOO WEAK TO MOLT. I HATE THE HAIR THAT GROWS ON MY FACE WHEN I SLEEP TOO MUCH AND FOR TOO LONG, AND I FIND MYSELF HOURS AND HOURS INTO THE FUTURE AGAIN AND AGAIN. I HAVE BEEN OFFSCREEN IN MY OWN MOVIE THIS WHOLE TIME. IT TAKES SO MUCH ENERGY TO DO THE BARE MINIMUM. I'VE DONE EVERYTHING I'M SUPPOSED TO BUT I'M STILL SUFFERING. I DO HAVE A CHILDS' PSYCHIATRIST (very thankfully). BUT I FEEL LIKE I WOULD BENEFIT MUCH MORE FROM A PADDED CELL. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE