Im actually sick of bullying and transphobia

Im trans and no one knows, everyone around me is transphobic, everyday i get bullied at school becaude im ginger and have long hair (had this before being trans) and oftem get called the slur, only thing keeping me alive is siblimgs and parent (father) and the rest of my family (who ae all transphobic but i ain gonna let my siblings rot in the care system without my moral support) i have been verbally and physically abused in the foster care system for 9 months then i got moved to a childrens home who have a majority of staff i can tell are tramsphobic, every night i struggle to sleep, and when i do im on the verge of tears, its worse than i describe, good bye for now