I don't feel like I'm my own self and that I copy interests or am just impressionable, and a loser.

(16, Female) Something I've kinda been noticing over the past couple years now is that I've always felt super impressionable, and it has come go a point where I can't develop a new hobby without critizing myself for either copying someone, or similar. a few examples would be, first, a year back, when I saw someone in our school's play's stage crew do magic trick with cards, i became obsessed and hyperfocused on magic tricks, also claiming in small talk with the person to always have had a liking for magic- which, the odd thing is, i did have a little moment of inspo when i was way younger. another example would be chess, I saw my brother play it, and again, i was all obsessed and hyperfocused. i took lessons, coaches, blah blah blah, and it fell out of interest after a month of two. ive had many more of these little flukes of interest, and they seem to all last a short while. this all being said, i now find myself in a very similar situation, and its actually stupid, to where im embarrased to say this. ive recently watched this anime called "Call of the Night." its genuinely super cool, a vibe to watch if you like the night obv or simply like watching anime for visual purposes. the problem with this is that the main character, Ko, walks around the city at night time a lot. watching this, i felt compelled to act similarly. loser activity, i know. but this genuinely is troubling

me, because ive always been, without a doubt, a sucker for the vibe of the night, and space. like, stargazing, or even just looking at the night sky. also, ive done similar in the past- going out at dark to stargaze, or similar. thats my excuse for, after watching the show, feeling so compelled again to explore at night, though compared to when i stargazed, ive since moved to a city where i cant see squat. also, itd be kinda going against curfew laws.... and i could get in trouble... i just want to know if i should endulge in this feeling, having every right to, or not, because i feel to easily impressionable. is impressionablility even the issue here? i just want to know what to do- any sort of guidance would help me lots.

also i cant shake the feeling that im just a loser for feeling so compelled to do stupid shit like this just by a 2d animated show