Anxiety of Retakers

Today is another day of fighting the battle. Not a peptalk but a reality. Ibang iba yong kaba ng retakers sa boards. Everytime you read materials and feeling mo its not enough or will this be enough? And never ending self doubt. I always want to seethe positive light of everything like “this is just a test or phase that i need to overcome” but no one prepared me the panic attack you feel before you open a material, the anxiety you face before you sleep thinking if the effort you did today is enough or wonder if i missed something. Mga closed friends ko dotor na. Yes, the comparison did. Feeling alone. You lose sleep not because you study a lot but because of overthiking, you lose self esteem and you always doubt yourself.. and i cant help it. Still preparing and doing my best and wala naman sa isip ko magbackout but the thought of what if something goes wrong like last season, i went to testing site in day 1 and 3 with zero sleep as in zero. Been trying to cure my insomnia but parang mas lumalala sya. Now currently experimenting which one works for me like melatonin.

But nonethless, i am still hopeful and optimistic about my preparation. Wala namang umattend ng PLE na prepared talaga except si Linda walker hahahaha 🤣

But at the end of the day, you surrender everything nalangto God instead of losing yourself with your negative thoughts. Sana good health and less trials for all of us sa last weeks ng PLE. Sana all of us made it. 🫰🏻