i have no friends

i don’t know why i thought i would just magically find my people after high school. i genuinely have no friends. the very very few i do have, i have nothing in common with and i can tell dont really like me. it’s one of those things where we’re friends because we have been for awhile, and theres no solid reason to do a dramatic friendship breakup — also because they know i have no one.

i feel so alone. i dont know how to talk to people. i’ve missed out on so many life experiences. i’ve never even been to a party. i’m not a religious person, but the amount of times i’ve prayed over and over again for a genuine friendship is pathetic.

i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so sad all the time. also just lost my job. was hoping to get back into some hobbies or something but the semester just started and i realized the class im taking will probably take up all of my energy and time. i’m genuinely a shell of a person and i don’t know what to do.

i’ve never dated anyone either. i closed myself off from the world for so long and assumed everything would just work out but instead, ive set myself back years.