What can I do about this ? Therapy has not worked .

So I have been SAed a few times , started when I was 12 , when my neighbor used to grope my chest and ass , then my 2 cousins who also groped me in the school van and then proceeded to tell others at school that I was a slut and let them do it , then when I confessed to a senior at school about my crush , he told others that I was a whore and explicitly used the ' R ' word to describe me to his friends and some of my classmates too , and the last one happened when I was 19 and a man in his late 40s or early 50s jerked himself off on me on a public bus , while I was on my way to college . In all of these moments , I froze , just that , did not say anything , did not fight it , none of that .

The last time was when my repressed memories from the rest of my childhood came back and I started having OCD like symptoms , got anxiety , depression and horrible PTSD . Since moving out from my hometown a couple of years ago , I thought I had gotten better , that it was over now . But each time that I visit back there , I get panic attacks and nightmares . I am dreading the fact that I have to go back in a few months for whole of summer . I have been having restless nights , trouble sleeping and nightmares here too for the past couple of weeks .

Just this morning , I woke up around 4 am , because I dreamt that I was being raped in a bus by many men . I opened my eyes , but I wasn't able to move myself for maybe 30 minutes or so , and after that I couldn't stop crying . I have an exam to prepare for and I am not able to do anything except procrastinate by scrolling endlessly because it keeps me distracted from remembering what happened . I have tried therapy , spent a good amount at it , but it did not work out .