Anxious

I’ve meddled my way through different types of therapies and feel that mentally where I am right now, it’s not helping. I considered hypnotherapy, but honestly I’m scared. I’m feel like any true and real connection I make with my subconscious self is going to open Pandora’s box and I’m not sure what I’m going to find there. Talk therapy really had me digging deep into some stuff and I had to back out cause my body just couldn’t deal. I have somewhere I’m trying to get mentally, emotionally and psychologically and I feel that I need to open that box. I feel like it’s protection of some sort and it’s making me even more nervous because whatever it is may or may not break me down. Gradually over time I’m coming together better with whatever that may be but I’m tired.