Just a quick rant

I don't really have anyone to talk to so I thought I would try here... idk. tomorrow I have to get up at 4am meet my oncologist surgeon to discuss the lumpectomy I need and hopefully about being diagnosed with birads 5 and getting genetic testing. it's been weeks and nobody has called me to talk about anything.

I'm just so nervous, maybe I should just stay up and play video games. I haven't been able to sleep all week from the anxiety. I'm so scared. I know it seems vain but I don't want to chop off my boobs 😡 . I can't take hormones, at all. That makes me EXTRA nervous.