Having severe depression makes me feel like such a loser

I'm severely depressed. Bad enough I can't get out of bed some days for more than a couple hours. Bad enough working is impossible. Bad enough I've stopped doing basically anything.

I feel like such a pathetic loser for this. I'm living at home with my parents, and every day is a struggle. Lectures about not doing enough when I'm barely hanging on.

It doesn't help I get basically no support and I have close to no friends either, and being transgender in an unsupportive household makes all my problems compound.

But the worst thing is I know how to get out of my current situation but I just can't. I lay here all day wasting space and breath while everyone else lives their lives. I wish I had the courage to kill myself but I don't.