i’m in a “situationship” with one of my supervisors/managers

I started a new job around August. Around this time the store was going through lots of changes like switching things around, new management, new hires, basically a whole do over.

So come October/Novemberish our store gets a new retail supervisor. I meet her briefly we don’t really talk much but it’s cordial yk. weeks go by we still have a professional work relationship, but as we start working together more we get more friendly and playful with each other. One night we’re working together and i’m kinda jus walking around the store cleaning up with her and we’re joking around talking and she asks for me for my phone, then puts her number in and we started texting from there.

Atp we’re talking getting to know each other hanging out together. we even did a mini road trip and went to New York for the night and she kissed me and held me for the first time. After that I was was jus kinda questioning her intentions and asked her what wanted, and she was basically saying it’s up to me and I told her I wanted to work towards a relationship, but the conversation didn’t really get anywhere.

Fast forward to the next week she switches up and tells me “my demeanor be off” and it seem like I don’t like her and i tried explaining how that was untrue and even wrote her a long message telling her how i felt abt her and she basically told me she thought it was AI and then everytime i tried to get her to respond to the message i sent she kept saying she wasn’t mentally ready and how deep the message was and how she never got that deep with God before. So i’m like oh okay well you lmk when you ready thinking she need a day or two but no she drags this out from late december to january and finally responds with some bs saying she appreciates me and shi. so in my brain i’m jus like it’s no hope for a relationship she’s obviously not giving me the effort that i’m giving her and it’s like i’m walking on eggshells talking to her. so i kinda stop talking to her and distance myself.

Then boom she texts me out the blue “i’m sorry”. in my mind im confused and not really expecting that so i’m jus like wym and she basically says she got convicted by God and apologized for doing me wrong or whatever. So after that we’re cool again, we’re texting and calling almost every other day but in my mind i’m like we’re friends because of the vibes she’s giving..for instance she’ll tell me abt some girl she talking to and asked me if she should lock in with her or not so i’m jus like okay cool you’re willing to settle jus not with me.

fast forward to the weekend i worked a night shift so i didn’t get home till like 10:30 pm i text my plug asked him to pull up on me and i had asked if he could do me a favor and roll for me and he was like sure but then asked for a favor back so im like what is it? he sends me a pic of his dick and says if you suck it i’ll throw in a lil extra, so now i’m jus laughing not taking this nigga serious anymore and i’m jus telling him no n shi and i ended up paying him and calling the girl right after he leaves to tell her wtf jus happened and she not tryna answer gives me some bs excuse as to why she couldn’t answer the phone and then when i tell her what happens she goes off on me and basically says why didn’t i tell her in the moment when it happened and was basically saying don’t text her phone bc i broke her trust.

she calls today asking if i’m okay brings up the situation saying i still haven’t explained myself but i did and when i tried to defend myself and tell her how didn’t i explain myself she shuts the conversation down and says she’s not ready to talk abt what happened so i asked when are you gonna be ready she says probably never and we end the conversation there.