Going to kill myself because of you dad

Why do you have to be so hateful? I want to love you but you don’t make it easy.

I just want to live as the person i’m meant to be and love the man i do. You’d hate me so much if you knew. I’m scared of what you’ll do to me. I don’t have any option other than killing myself to get out of these lies i’ve made just to keep myself safe.