Age gap (concern?)

There is a 13 year age difference between me and my sp. Been thinking it's why I'm non-conciously blocking myself from being successful w my manifesting 🥲 we haven't met before but I think I keep repeating the "non believing" pattern that I make up in my head. That he thinks this and that, doesn't want me, doesn't like the age gap, someone else got him first, etc. I'm trying my best to stop but I'm terrible at visualising! Been through a similar experience and got out of it? I love him lah 😭