I give up

I no longer have the strength to fight OCD. I know we shouldn't fight it, but it has destroyed my life. Supposed false memories, intrusive thoughts, and so many other obsessions have ruined my life. I am only alive because of my mother and my little sister.

I'm on medication, but without therapy because I lost my job due to my own mistakes (and OCD also played a big part) and now I'm unemployed.

Nothing will help me, I've tried everything. I've been fighting this daily battle since 2022 and I can't take it anymore.