What I have learned

I’m an anxious partner. This relationship was 1000% my mirror. I knew that I felt anxiety in pretty much all of my relationships, and this break up is what made me want to look inward.

My childhood was fucked up. I was raised my my single parent alcoholic mother in my adolescent years. I developed people pleasing tendencies and for some reason believed that i needed to earn love. That I wasn’t good enough. Shame galore.

That was my lesson. I feel like I’m the same kind of fucked up. Just in a different way. I think about how hard it is going to be for me to unlearn what I know, and try to change this part of me. So in a way it’s so weird that I feel that I can relate on some level.