I'm disgusting and need to dieeee

Im a disgusting porn addict, I like to lead men on into thinking they have a chance of seeing me just to block them I'm cheating on my girlfriend for the small attention these guys give me I'm a worthless fuck with full body pictures out there from ages 6-12 and tits from 15-17

I plan on attempting tonight ngl, if I fail then I'll just get back to watching porn because that's the only thing I'm ever into nowadays even if the shit is boring

I hate being hypersexual, I hate that I was influenced at a young age. I wish my attempt worked when I was 12, I wouldn't have to live with the guilt and fear of being around kids. I'm scared that one day I'll act on the disgusting thoughts I have. I hate that my mind even thinks of harming them wtf is wrong with me!? I fucking hate mysyelf

Why did I do that to other kids way back then??? I should've known better and the shit that happened to me also made me uncomfortable so why did I do it to them??? I know iidndt know better then but I should've 💔