NSFW I met a new colleague at work and had sex with her.

I work as a paramedic, and I truly love what I do. Recently, a new woman started working in the office at my station. We hit it off immediately, exchanged numbers, and ended up talking through our entire shift.

Since staying professional at work is extremely important to me, we agreed to meet up after hours. We went out to a bar, and during our conversation, she dropped a bombshell: she’s married. I was taken aback and felt pretty uncomfortable, but she followed it up by saying she doesn't want to be in that marriage anymore and was just looking to "blow off some steam."

After I had a few beers.

it’s worth noting that I was the only one drinking; she stayed completely sober.

we went to a nearby motel.

Right before things went further, she stopped me and told me she is a trans woman. One thing led to another, and we ended up having sex.

I want to be clear I’ve always identified as straight and have never had an experience with a trans woman before. We had oral sex, and she penetrated me. It was something I never knew I could do, or even enjoy, but I did.

Now, I’m feeling a total whirlwind of emotions. I feel "weird" but also guilty, both because I feel like I helped her cheat and because I'm processing the "trans thing." On the other hand, she told me she wants this to become a regular thing, and I’m conflicted. Part of me keeps feeling like I want to do this again

with her, and with trans women in general. I’m just trying to make sense of it all.